Human after all

There is so much to learn from popular movies and serials! While I try to defend my vacation-mode entertainment spree as being stimulating for the brain, there really are so many observations to be made about the human nature every day!

Heroes… the series had me hooked for a long time and I proudly claim I hooked many others to it too. Some aspects of the story-telling and the way the writer weaves you around all the grey areas of a personality had me intrigued. No person is right or wrong, no act is good or bad, and there is no correct or incorrect behaviour. The grey areas make up almost all of our lives when we cross the age of 10 (maye even lesser for the future generations). All decisions are biased, all reactions triggered by past experiences. There is no “in” group or “out” group. There are always groups of like-minded people who converge with a common motive, but noone ever truly belongs. We are all extra-ordinary, and normalcy is not appealing anymore.

Friends… Classic television. Never get bored of it. Some nice moments… Joey proving that there is no selfless act in the world. Even if there is a lovely feeling of togetherness each individual has their own personal world, their own little demons to deal with.  You dont find great friendship, you have to work into it. Every relationship has some amount of hard work behind it. You can be yourself with people you are comfortable with, but you will lose them eventually if you dont let your brain filter some of the things you say and do. (I learned that leson a little too late) And yes, you are with friends because you need them. No-one is so inhumanly selfless that friendhip only means good times. It also means solidarity.. it means I mean it when I say I will be there for you in the middle of the night AND that I expect the same from you.

Gilmore Girls… The TV version of chick flick movies…but a lot more intelligent. Mother daughter relationship. What we expect, what we get, what changes all that complicated mess. Knowing that a hug will heal but wondering if a hug still means the same…..(make that whether a hug had a meaning earlier???). Holding on the the good old baby years when there was no adolescence, no internet, no boyfriends, no clashes of good/bad and right/wrong. Dealing with disfunctional families, disfunctional societies, a disfunctional way of growing up. Finding new ways to connect and unsurely taking those wobbly baby steps again…this time in a different direction.

How I Met Your Mother… A lovely way of describing relationships and life. It is a long and funny description of people and their ways. The dynamics of relationships and how they change are explained so well in this series I wonder how male directors can get so sensitive Not a general rule…but most guys might not like this series…but belive me, there is a Ted inside every guy I’ve met. Ted Mosby, the architect who wants to be successful, meet his soul-mate, make a family with her, and is ready to take the fall several times before he finds the perfect one for himself. …. yeah… cheesy…but believable.

So hey…feel like figuring out whats wrong with your life?? Try watching some feel-good serials…. trust tejasee to find philosophy in comedy

Friend

I wasn’t looking for it, but some how it came, and found me.
Before I had a chance to react, it wrapped it’s warmth around me.
Like a thief in the night, it has come and gone.
I have nothing, but that vision to reflect upon.

Until chance comes again, I’ll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.
All day long, in my mind, I walk love’s lonely street.
Like a tired man that longs to sit, but just can’t find a seat.
Then, there it was again, up ahead, to light my way.

Only to vanish once more, just like all my yesterdays.
Until chance comes again, I’ll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.
I don’t know where I’m going, and where I’ve been isn’t much to speak of.
I just know my heart is always showing, leading me to some far off love.

Just when I give up the fight.
Here it comes to make the bad things good, and the wrong things right.
Only to leave me lost and lonely again.
Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.

It has a name, I think they call it friend.

I came across this poem when I was searching for something  to write to people who have made a difference in my life during my time in college. We just finished bidding farewell to each other. Its just four year but so many things have never happened in my life in such a short span of time. I’m sure everyone will carry loads of memories. The bunking, the picnics, the screw ups, the tears, the laughs, the first crushes, the broken hearts, the new beginnings… so much to remember… so much to forget. A lot to forgive and some to hold on to for a lifetime .

Just like all important things in life, that are invisible to the eye and illusive to the brain, friendship baffles me. I’ve picked up some gems, (using that analogy i could say i’ve discarded some pebbles :p ) What baffles me is how much changes and yet some things will always remain.

Everyone has their own definitions of what a friend should be. Some one to hang out with, some one who can keep you smiling, someone who knows everything about you, and likes you inspite of all your short-comings. All these are just the basic requirements we all grew up with as kids. But as we grow up, there are a lot more things expected from a true friend. Things that really cant be put to words. Things that inspire vague posts like these :p There is so much to be said… maybe some day I will.. but not yet… for now… this post is all i can come up with.

My favourite Sandeep khare & Salil Kulkarni songs

Had gone to a musical programme by Sandeep Khare and Dr. Salil Kulkarni the other day. I have always loved their songs. Especially Snadeep Khare’s poetry… here are a few of my favourites…hope everyone can understand them. I tried translating, but it just ends up sounding silly.

This one is dedicated to all the emotional freaks like me..

आताशा.. असे हे.. मला काय होते!!!
कुण्या काळचे , पाणी डोळ्यात येते…..
बरा बोलता बोलता , स्तब्ध होतो…
कशी शांतता , शून्य शब्दांत येते…….
आताशा.. असे हे .. मला काय होते!!!
कुण्या काळ चे , पाणी डोळ्यात येते!!!

कधी दाटु येता , पसारा घनांचा….
कसा सावला रंग , होतो मनाचा…
असे हालते .. आत हलुवार काही…
जसा सप्र्श पाण्यावरी चाँदण्याचा….

असा ऐकू येतो , क्षणाचा इशारा …
क्षणी व्यरथ होतो … दीशांचा पसारा…
नभातुन ज्या .. रोज जातो बुडूनी..
नभाशीच त्या… मागु जातो कीनारा….

न अंदाज कुठले.. न अवधान काही….
कुठे जायचे , यायचे भान नाही..
जसा गंध नीघतो, हवेच्या प्रवासा
न कुठले नकाशे.. न अनुमान काही….

कशी ही अवस्था.. कुणाला कलावे..
कुणाला पुसावे.. कुणी उत्तरावे…
कीती खोल जातो, तरी तोल जातो…
असा तोल जाता.. कुणी सावरावे….

आताशा .. असे हे ..मला काय होते ….
कुण्या काळ चे ,पाणी डोळ्यात येते….
बर बोलता बोलता , स्तब्ध होतो.
कशी शांतता शून्य शब्दांत येते…

आताशा असे हे मला काय होते ….
कुण्या काळ चे पाणी डोळ्यात येते…..

This one to all those who live life as it comes and face everything on its face…

जपत किनारा शीड सोडणे – नामंजूर!
अन वार्‍याची वाट पहाणे – नामंजूर!
मी ठरवावी दिशा वाहत्या पाण्याची
येईल त्या लाटेवर डुलणे – नामंजूर!

मला ऋतुंची साथ नको अन् कौल नको
मला कोठल्या शुभशकुनांची झूल नको
मुहुर्त माझा तोच ज्याक्षणी हो इच्छा
वेळ पाहुनि खेळ मांडणे – नामंजूर!

माझ्याहाती विनाश माझा! कारण मी!
मोहासाठी देह ठेवतो तारण मी!
सुंदरतेवर होवो जगणे चक्काचूर
मज अब्रूचे थिटे बहाणे – नामंजूर!

रुसवे – फ़ुगवे… भांडणतंटे… लाख कळा
आपला – तुपला हिशेब आहे हा सगळा
रोख पावती इथेच द्यावी अन् घ्यावी
गगनाशी नेणे गार्‍हाणे – नामंजूर!

नीती, तत्वे… फ़सवी गणिते! दूर बरी!
रक्तातील आदिम जिण्याची ओढ खरी!
जगण्यासाठी रक्त वहाणे मज समजे,
पण रक्ताचा गर्व वाहणे – नामंजूर!

And the last one.. dedicated to everyone who have watched their loved ones leave, and said a goodbye, in hope of seeing them again sooner rather than later… and wishing things never change

गाडी सुटली, रुमाल हलले, क्षणात डोळे टचकन् ओले
गाडी सुटली, पडले चेहरे, क्षण साधाया हसरे झाले
गाडी सुटली, हातामधुनी हात कापरा तरी सुटेना
अंतरातली ओली माया तुटूदे म्हटले तरी तुटेना
का रे इतका लळा लावुनी नंतर मग ही गाडी सुटते
डोळ्यांदेखत सरकत जाते आठवणींचा ठिपका होते
गाडी गेली फलाटावरी नि:श्वासांचा कचरा झाला
गाडी गेली डोळ्यामधल्या निर्धाराचा पारा फुटला

हे भलते अवघड असते… हे भलते अवघड असते…
कुणी प्रचंड आवडणारे… ते दूर दूर जाताना…
डोळ्यांच्या देखत आणि नाहीसे लांब होताना…
डोळ्यातील अडवून पाणी… हुंदका रोखुनी कंठी…
तुम्ही केविलवाणे हसता अन् तुम्हास नियती हसते…

तरी असतो पकडायाचा… हातात रुमाल गुलाबी…
वार्‍यावर फडकवताना… पाह्यची चालती गाडी…
ती खिडकीतून बघणारी अन् स्वतः मधे रमलेली…
गजरा माळावा इतुके… ती सहज अलविदा म्हणते…

तुम्ही म्हणता मनास आता, हा तोडायाचा सेतू…
इतक्यात म्हणे ती – माझ्या कधी गावा येशील का तू?
ती सहजच म्हणुनी जाते… मग सहजच हळवी होते…
गजर्‍यातील दोन कळ्या अन् हलकेच ओंजळीत देते…

कळते की गेली वेळ… ना आता सुटणे गाठ…
आपुल्याच मनातील स्वप्ने… घेऊन मिटावी मूठ…
ही मूठ उघडण्यापूर्वी… चल निघुया पाऊल म्हणते…
पण पाऊल निघण्यापूर्वी… गाडीच अचानक निघते…

परतीच्या वाटेवरती गुदमरून जड पायांनी…
ओठावर शीळ दिवाणी… बेफिकीर पण थरथरती…
पण क्षण क्षण वाढत असते… अंतर हे तुमच्यामधले…
मित्रांशी हसतानाही… हे दु:ख चरचरत असते…

Love-tag

Ooooooooooo…interesting….

I was tagged by Kaps again… So here it is..

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I’d hunt him down and ruin his life. Err… Tata Bbye…Watch your back

What would you do with a billion dollars?
Umm…live happily ever after??

Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Dont think so. It takes more than a best friend to handle a nut like me.

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved.. Hands down

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I’m a hopeless romantic… SO .. Forever

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I may be too immature to answer that one, but I don’t think I’ll ever fall for some one who is already attached. But if I ever do, I’ll probably convey my feelings and back out gracefully.

If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
Does it have to be a guy? I wanna act with konkona if it has to be a guy….abhishek bacchan

What takes you down the fastest?
Cruel words from loved ones.

How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Happy. Surrounded by people who care.

What’s your fear?
Losing the love of those who genuinely care.

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She is someone I want to be in a few years.

Whose butt would you like to kick?
Long list. Way too long. Lets start with Himesh.

Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Thats an unfair question! I want to neither be single, nor poor

What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Check the time

Would you give all in a relationship?
I love kaps’ answer here. “Perceptions.
Depends on whether the receiver sees it as a gift or punishment and
also whether I think I’ve given all or not! I hate the word ’sacrifice’.” How do you know whether you have given all? There has to be a sense of self without it being mistaken for selfishness. Basically I dont believe in give and take. However, like Kaps i hate the word sacrifice, or owing anyone anything.

If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None! I’d tell myself i was going crazy.

Would you forgive and forget, no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
I am good at the forgiving part. I suck at the forgetting part.

Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Relationship. I think Paulo Coelho explains it best in 11 Minutes.. ” Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves, we simply awaken it. But in order to do that we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have soemone to share our feelings with.”

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Err.. I don’t know. I usually have nightmares..

My bakwaas theories

Someone asked me what my theories about life are..

1) Life balances itself out. You should try not to meddle with it. I am not talking about taking/ not taking actions to solve problems… I am talking about the fact that good and bad things happen to you, you have no control over what happens to you, but you can control how you respond to it. Sometimes, not taking any action is an action in itself…. if you know what I mean.

2) You never really know anyone. By the time you come close to understanding and knowing them, they have already changed.

3)People change. Without warning, without letting you know.

4)Ironically, you can’t change people. It is nearly impossible to change a person’s basic nature.

5)There are explanations for everything. There may not be reasons for eveything.

6)95% of “first love” cases don’t work out. But the cutest and sweetest real love stories are about first loves.

7)Everybody is right and justified from their own point of view.

8)Being judgemental is human nature. You can’t help having first impressions about everyone you meet. They are mostly wrong.

9)Like Sheryl Crow says: “If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad… If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?”

Yet another Tag :)

So I was tagged by Pinksocks. This one reminds me of the slam books that we filled up before leaving school.

I am: Tejasee

I think: too much for my own good

I know: that life balances itself out ( gyaan from the great tejasee )

I want: to have a doggie of my own

I have: all that I asked for

I wish: Life didn’t suck as much as it does sometimes ( I agree with you here pinksocks )

I hate: a lot of things. Refer to point number 7 of my first tag for further details

I miss: the time when i didnt think so much

I fear: letting loved ones down

I feel: lucky to have so much to be thankful for

I hear: rock and alternative

I smell: good….i guess..

I crave: hot chocolate (right now)

I search: ….errr…..ummm….. I dont think I am searching for anything right now.

I wonder: how come I am not searching for anything

I regret: broken hearts

I love: dogs, chocolate, loved ones (obviously ), soup, juice

I ache: when I see what love puts people through. (filmy one, i know)

I care: for everyone who is close to me

I am not: mature, witty (quite a tubelight )

I believe: Refer to ‘I know’

I dance: very badly

I sing: very well… ahem… holder of a diploma in Hindustani Classical music

I cry: a lot!!!

I don’t always: like girl-talk ( I know nothing about various haircuts, heel-types and french manicures )

I fight: rarely

I write: any of the nutty junk that fills up my head

I can usually be found: hogging or reading

I need: loving and caring

I am happy about: having finished this tag without running out of patience

Happy Birthday to me :)

I turn one year old as a blogger today.

So..After one year of blogging, 67 posts, and 321 comments………..

• How do I feel???
  
  Goood

• What future plans?

  Continue the mad raving and occasional musing.

• Learned anything?

  Well…Just that it feels good to express yourself. And maybe even better when you find out that there are other nutters like you out there, who can relate with what you say and comment about it.

• Anything to say about blogging?
  
  Yes. Blogging totally rocks man! I have made so many friends, and this is like a parallel world to me, where I can be whoever I am, say want I want without fear or shame.
  Cheers to Blogging!! And a big THANK YOU to everyone who has ever visited my blog (sniff sniff) Love you guys, rock on.

P.S. Jaane Tu is awesome…. I wont waste my time writing a review about it, I am probably the last to watch it anyways

Happy :)

If you’re happy and you know it clap your hands

If you’re happy and you know it clap your hands

If you’re happy and you know it, and you really want to show it,  if you’re happy and you know it clap your hands.

Questions

1. Which is better to channelize all those negatives? Anger or sadness?
2. Which is better? Knowing that you know only about half a subject and scoring accordingly, or thinking that you know everything and scoring 80% when you don’t really know anything.
3. Why does the need to write something come right in the middle of exams?
4. What is the difference between love and need? Is there really any difference? Is selfless love a myth? When we say I love you, don’t we mean I need you? Does that make us selfish?
5. How long will it take for the exams to test really what you know? Ultimately, why do all exams come down to testing whether you can learn about 1200 pages per subject by heart, without really bothering to understand any of it? Why is there so much pressure that even when you try to understand you just end up memorizing it because there is just no time?
6. What is it about the rains that make me want to sit down in the balcony and read a good book?
7. If who you are, are the people you surround yourself with, and one day there are no people, then who are you now?
8. Why why why are dogs so lovable, and why why why cant i have one??
9. Why do re-runs look so interesting today when you’ve got one of the most boring papers to answer tomorrow?
10. Where do the advert guys from Vodafone come up with such cute ideas from? (loved the one with the bucktoothed kid sharing a drop of ink with his pretty friend )
11. Sometimes why does instrumental music say much more than anything with lyrics can?
12. A year from now, will I look at these questions and laugh at myself?

Young people these days..

We hear a lot about the youth of today going to waste. But at the same time there is also talk about youth doing wonderful things. We are growing up in a world full of such ironies. How many parents would like their children to take up the career as a social activist or social worker?? You want engineers and doctors, but you also want youth who care about everything else happening in the world, and believe it or not, these days , it is possible. All you elders were young too, at some point of time, and i am sure you can identify with our lives and our problems, but there is only a certain limit to which you can really feel what we feel. There is only a certain point upto which all the wise and experienced people can claim to have been there and done that.

I never thought I would quote Alanis Morissette on my blog, but here is something from her that I actually liked. And though it doesn’t actually represent how I personally feel or what i see among my friends, I think it pretty much sums up the so called problem we have with youth today.

Hand in my pocket – by Alanis Morissette

I’m broke but I’m happy
I’m poor but I’m kind
I’m short but I’m healthy, yeah
I’m high but I’m grounded
I’m sane but I’m overwhelmed
I’m lost but I’m hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I’m sober
I’m young and I’m underpaid
I’m tired but I’m working, yeah
I care but I’m worthless
I’m here but I’m really gone
I’m wrong and I’m sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything’s gonna be quite alright
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

What it all comes down to
Is that I haven’t got it all figured out just yet
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign

I’m free but I’m focused
I’m green but I’m wise
I’m shy but I’m friendly baby
I’m sad but I’m laughing
I’m brave but I’m chicken shit
I’m sick but I’m pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one’s really got it figured out just yet
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

What it all comes down to my dear friends
Is that everything’s just fine fine fine
I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxicab…